My life has gotten to the point where I know without a doubt that I need to make some personal lifestyle changes.
I can't live comfortable forever.
Time to make some changes!

The Demon

It captured me like a slave as fast as a blink of an eye.
It wrapped around my soul and pushed my real self aside.
It grabbed onto my heart and pulled it straight out of my chest.

Its as if everything happened just yesterday.
And the healing is so slow.
Climbing all of these obstacles keeps having me fall to my knees.
I keep trying to get up, but something keeps pushing me down.

It has me running in circles and I'm continually dizzy.
It has me fighting for who I really am or who I'm supposed to be.
It takes my breath away every second it gets.

Its as if I'm always trying to become someone strong.
And the weakness takes over.
Running this race just keeps getting longer and I get slower.
I keep trying to move on, but I get pushed back.

The demon of the past has got a hold on me.
It eats me up, I've try stay away.
No matter how far away I think I get, I am just closer than before.

My Day.

My Saturday List -
1. Transfer Money In Bank
2. Make Grocery List
3. Do The Dishes
4. Make Lunch
5. Start Laundry
6. Go Shopping
7. Drop Off Food
8. Do More Laundry
9. Clean Up House More
10. Do More Laundry
11. Possibly Watch Soccer
12. Finish Laundry
13. Dinner

Anybody wanna join??

11/14/10 - Go Figure Type of Day

Today was a very interesting day. It all started with last night. Go figure. ha!
My friends and I went to see Paranormal Activity 2. For those of you who know me very well, I am terrified of the first movie, Paranormal Activity; so when I heard the second was coming out, my first thought was "There is no way I am going to watch that movie"
Well last night, I went to watch it. Go figure!
To my surprise and to all my loved-ones surprise, the movie didnt even scare me. It may have been intense a few moments in the movie, but I kept my cool and enjoyed it.
My bravest friends were scared the most though. Go figure...
Since I faced my fears, I knew I'd be proud of myself and happy for the rest of the night.
I'm guessing that having a good attitude when going to bed, you can wake up with a good attitude.
Go figure.
I woke up this morning with an attitude of positivity. Which is usually nothing like me.
I just knew God helped me in every situation, even in the most simple ones like watching a scary movie.
God knows who I am, my fears, my pet-peeves, what I love, and what I hate.
I think that is just awesome!
Go figure!!

One Of Those Days..

Today is "one of those days" where.. I wish money grew on trees.
I wish I lived in a beautiful house where Christopher and I could raise a family.
I wish we could take trips out of town as often as we want.
I wish we could buy things for our family and our friends.
I wish we could have a puppy.
I wish we had careers of our dreams.


The sad part is.. we cannot do that unless we have money.
Our lives right now -- not rich.
Though we are making it and God blesses us, we seem to run short a lot.

Christopher and I are trying to trust in God's blessings and be thankful for them.
After all.. we are more blessed than a lot of people out there.