The Demon

It captured me like a slave as fast as a blink of an eye.
It wrapped around my soul and pushed my real self aside.
It grabbed onto my heart and pulled it straight out of my chest.

Its as if everything happened just yesterday.
And the healing is so slow.
Climbing all of these obstacles keeps having me fall to my knees.
I keep trying to get up, but something keeps pushing me down.

It has me running in circles and I'm continually dizzy.
It has me fighting for who I really am or who I'm supposed to be.
It takes my breath away every second it gets.

Its as if I'm always trying to become someone strong.
And the weakness takes over.
Running this race just keeps getting longer and I get slower.
I keep trying to move on, but I get pushed back.

The demon of the past has got a hold on me.
It eats me up, I've try stay away.
No matter how far away I think I get, I am just closer than before.

My Day.

My Saturday List -
1. Transfer Money In Bank
2. Make Grocery List
3. Do The Dishes
4. Make Lunch
5. Start Laundry
6. Go Shopping
7. Drop Off Food
8. Do More Laundry
9. Clean Up House More
10. Do More Laundry
11. Possibly Watch Soccer
12. Finish Laundry
13. Dinner

Anybody wanna join??

11/14/10 - Go Figure Type of Day

Today was a very interesting day. It all started with last night. Go figure. ha!
My friends and I went to see Paranormal Activity 2. For those of you who know me very well, I am terrified of the first movie, Paranormal Activity; so when I heard the second was coming out, my first thought was "There is no way I am going to watch that movie"
Well last night, I went to watch it. Go figure!
To my surprise and to all my loved-ones surprise, the movie didnt even scare me. It may have been intense a few moments in the movie, but I kept my cool and enjoyed it.
My bravest friends were scared the most though. Go figure...
Since I faced my fears, I knew I'd be proud of myself and happy for the rest of the night.
I'm guessing that having a good attitude when going to bed, you can wake up with a good attitude.
Go figure.
I woke up this morning with an attitude of positivity. Which is usually nothing like me.
I just knew God helped me in every situation, even in the most simple ones like watching a scary movie.
God knows who I am, my fears, my pet-peeves, what I love, and what I hate.
I think that is just awesome!
Go figure!!

One Of Those Days..

Today is "one of those days" where.. I wish money grew on trees.
I wish I lived in a beautiful house where Christopher and I could raise a family.
I wish we could take trips out of town as often as we want.
I wish we could buy things for our family and our friends.
I wish we could have a puppy.
I wish we had careers of our dreams.


The sad part is.. we cannot do that unless we have money.
Our lives right now -- not rich.
Though we are making it and God blesses us, we seem to run short a lot.

Christopher and I are trying to trust in God's blessings and be thankful for them.
After all.. we are more blessed than a lot of people out there.

Elaborating on the Questions

Since some of you are wondering what exactly my questions were referring to, I will elaborate.
1. What is heaven really like?
What I mean by that is - How can some people say Heaven is pearly gates and gold walkways or whatever you'd prefer. Others have no idea. How can we have faith that Heaven is a place to look forward to?
2. Is there really a Heaven or a Hell?
What I was referring to was - How can we have faith that a Heaven and a Hell does exsist?
3. Where do all of our different forms of faith come from?
What I meant by that is - Where do other religions (besides Christianity) come from? Is it some random idea that someone had or did a miracle happen to make them believe in something other than Christianity?
4. Why does everyone have a desire in the supernatural?
Meaning - Why do we all (human-beings) have a desire to see things that are not seen on a daily basis. Such as, ghosts, demons, angels, etc.
5. Where do some ideas of the supernatural come from?
Elaborating - Where did people get the idea of a ghost or any creature that is rarely, if ever, seen?
Did they actually see one or do they just make up stories and we (as human beings) are that gullable to believe?
Anyways.. I hope that helped. Let me know what your answers are!

Questions!

I've been thinking about a few subjects for the past couple of weeks that have really struck my attention.
They are actually questions. I guess you can say I've been "pondering" some things.
1. What is Heaven really like?
2. Is there really a Heaven or a Hell?
3. Where do all of our different forms of faith come from?
4. Why does everyone have a desire in the supernatural?
5. Where do some ideas of the supernatural come from?
In my heart, I want to believe what I should believe.. but I'm not quite sure what I should believe.
If any of you or anyone you know can answer these questions for me, please be my guest.
I am very curious and would love to know!

Day Two -
Today was quite the emotional rollercoaster ride. It started out in the middle of the night. I woke up to random anxiety attacks as well as muscle cramps in my legs. A few minutes later, I fell asleep. Thank goodness. I'd rather not be kept awake by negative things such as those.
I seem to keep having stressful nights of sleep. I cannot really explain why.
At least my husband was there. :) Thank goodness for Superman.
Today started out okay then a few things happened and it wound up bad. The rest of the day stayed bad.
It seems like I have to go through something bad every week, but it is just life I suppose.
There are a lot of good things too. For instance, I enjoyed spending time with my sister-in-law, and cooking a very yummy dinner for her, my husband, and my brother-in-law.
I also got to watch the finale of Teen Mom. Very interesting crap!
Now I'm talking to my sister, because I've realized that other people matter more than yourself most the time. She is very important to me and I'm wanting to make sure she is alright too.
Anyway!
Thats my life today. Yep. Not going into details. Just leaving it at that.
The End.

Today is the first day I'm starting this little "blogging adventure". I've been reading other friend's blogs as well as watching people writing random things and it's made me want to write again.
I will write about non-sense things and maybe sometimes I will even write about things that actually impact the heart and mind of people.
I hope that this will be a good experience. We will see!